I normally start my day with my song blog. But today I want to share something that is “behind the songs”.
I have been writing songs compulsively and obsessively since 1974. By 1976 they started to be acknowledged by the people who heard them as “amazing”. But the very personality traits that make me a good songwriter made me almost incapable of actually “getting them out into the world” in any “professional” way.
Over the years my personal challenges around this FORCED me to do deep and often excruciatingly difficult work on myself. Every thing I’ve learned in the fields of energy healing, NLP, Hypnosis etc was motivated by this 35 year urgency to get the hell out of my own way so that I could share these songs in some significant, meaningful way with people who actually might want to hear them.
So this video is a little bit about that.
I have a feeling that this video is too personal. It’s not my intention to make anyone uncomfortable and if you are uncomfortable with real feelings from a person who isn’t stifling or stuffing his emotions down and out of sight, you might want to skip this.
After my morning gig at Unity Church in Albany, I usually come home, have a quiet meal and take a nap so that I’m centered and energized for the evening “One Song” service where we go deep with chant and readings from spiritual traditions all over the world.
Yesterday, I just couldn’t rest. Something was just bubbling up in me the way a song that wants to “come through” starts to press in at me, demanding attention.
So I turned on the video camera and opened my mouth. No plan. No script. Just my thoughts and feelings at that moment.
I’ll admit it right now, I got a bit emotional. I’m not embarrassed by that, but some people may be.
I’m not sure how long I’ll leave this video up.
It may be TMI, “too much information”.
It may be too long.
It may be “too this or that or too something else.”
If you find it valuable great. If not, that’s ok too.
Here’s the video.