I wrote “I Do Not Believe In The Ocean,” (Life In Song #355) on 8/29/2006 after my 2nd marriage broke up and I was attempting to date… the song is incredibly sad but it ends with HOPE.
So stick with it to the end. Sometimes sad songs are powerfully healing. We ALL struggle with this Love thing. And every year the dating thing seems to get harder and harder for all the single folks out there. My advice is to hang in there and keep working on your “stuff” around love and relationships. Find a community of people who value self improvement and self reflection. I truly beleive there is hope. but the only way out is THROUGH.
work on YOU. work on healing YOU so that whether someone else is the “one” is less important than the process of healing and growing that relationships “force” us to do.
Just after I released this song back in 2019, I met Ursula on the street in Albany NY and we went for a canoe paddle. We got back together after a year apart and we have continued to work on and deepen our relating and communicating skills since then.
Feel the feelings but don’t get stuck in them. We can not heal what we can not feel. But at the same time we HAVE to work on the healing part. Don’t be afraid of the work. It’s worth doing. ok?
– Mark
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Lyrics:
I DO NOT BELIEVE IN THE OCEAN
Life In Song #355 | 8/29/2006 | recorded 9/18/2019
I do not believe in the ocean
I do not believe in the sky
I do not believe in the mountains
And I do not believe in love’s lie
Refrain:
And I tore myself to pieces
On the last woman I loved
I tore myself to pieces
And that should have been lesson enough
But the Siren sound of her voice
Punctures my soul like a dart
So lash me to the mast boys
Ere again I lose my heart
Refrain:
Every time I approach it
It seems to get farther away
Ever time I approach it
It takes more than I’ve got left to pay
Refrain:
Look at yourself in the mirror
Someday you are destined to die
If you looked at your life any clearer
You might dare to believe in love’s “Lie”
Refrain:
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